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Three Weeks a Woman
Voice therapy, transition progress, dating stuff, etc. Open at your own risk!
i have this theoryif you add enough emojis and exclamation marks to any written textreaders will perceive the author as femaleregardless of content, style or word usage
isn’t presentation interesting!?
if you know you know
i plan on soft coming out at the office week after next
by wearing a trans flag wristband to the office
if you know know the colors, you know what im announcing
if you dont know the colors, im not really interested in telling you
….
pretty nifty coded communication right?
im pretty good at thinking stuff like this up, its fun
….
if you know you know 😎
voice therapy is super interesting!
first of all, the therapist was amazing
made it feel very fun, very safe! 😊
second, voice is such a fascinating and flexible thing
she ran through seven distinctly female, yet vastly different voices in the first 10 minutes. so freaking cool!!
”so like, have you ever like, dated a valley girl?”1
the valley girl voice uses a ton of vocal fry
which is interesting (to voice therapists and transwomen)
because heavy vocal fry usage was exclusively masculine for a long time
nasality, throat dilation, mouth dilation, projecting upward or downward, tongue stops and placement, resonance
so much goes into voice besides pitch
she also went a ton into presentation
which i love because presentation is so fascinating
we talked about what parts of my presentation are already explicitly feminine
for example, she noted that i tend to sit in a classic Y shape with my hands together
(right above)
that i self-touch frequently (play with my nails, hold my hand to my chest, touch my face and play with my hair)
and that my emotiveness level was very feminine
which felt nice to hear!
i think its my most feminine-presenting trait 🤭
here’s the thing about presentation
by far the majority of it is culturally shaped, not innate
and there are plenty of socially “feminine” presentations that bear minimal resemblance to each other, be it aesthetics, personality, or whatever
who do you want to be?
so one of the most interesting questions for transwomen
is “what sort of presentation expresses you?”
by way of example
i came in with three female actresses whose voices i want to emulate
i knew the therapist would ask and she did
i did some pre-study and voice work the past 2 months
(yt/transvoicelessons and im a singer)2
the list is Kristen Bell (just her, anywhere, anytime)
and then Katie and Tanis from Letterkenny
this clip is actually amazing voice therapy wise
because Katie repeats the same phrase in each scene
so its a powerful isolate of her voice
and variants for emphasis, emotion, etc.
per my therapist, all three have clear, emphatic voices
im not sure how to explain it, it was complex and i dont get it all yet
no fry, minimal affect, crisp pronunciation, standard nasality
its easy to understand them, even at low volume
presentation-wise, if you watch the last podcast
and compare my hand gestures to Tanis, theyre pretty close
i mimic’ed until they became my natural hand gestures
took like 3 weeks, pretty easy to retrain gestures and posture imo
i did that back in May
also her resting and confrontational postures
shes relaxed, feminine, assertive and seductive simultaneously
srsly dont stand so close to me
Tanis also does something i find fascinating
she deliberately stands about 3 inches closer than normal personal space boundaries would dictate
men cant do that with deliberateness
done to other men, its provocation3
done to women, its violative and aggro (especially as the size differential grows)
youre gonna get ostracized fast if you do that
done by Tanis, however, its powerful and/or seductive
super interesting imo
point of emphasis
my issue will be presentation, not fundamentals
i had an emphatic, masculine voice before
i drop pitch, project into my throat and rasp when being emphatic
prototypically masculine
i want an emphatic, feminine voice
but the way male and female voices do emphasis is wildly different
its gonna be a total rebuild
body change updates
questions
i forgot about the church of hayley kiyoko
if you don’t know who she is
you are not a lesbian under the age of 45
i downloaded the dating app HER!
if you haven’t heard of it, its the “lesbian” dating app
the only men on it are transmen
HER has a lot of friendship building, unlike most dating apps
i downloaded it to make more female-presenting friends
little expectation dating-wise
i assumed that my genitalia would disqualify me
incorrect assumption 😲
honestly im a ashamed of making it
pretty prejudiced on my part 🤯
dilemma for me
i planned not to date cis women for a while
i did that for 16 years, time to try something else ya know?
a genuinely sapphic relationship could be rlly nice tho!
something to consider
i did already make a new friend! 🥳
idle hands are the devil's playthings
i did a blow and go wednesday night
self-explanatory term, right?
afterward a friend asked “nothing for you”?
me: “gotta get my 10000 hours somewhere” 🤣
also giving blowjobs is fun and empowering 🤗
in response to a stupid comment
almost all of my female friends throughout my adult life
have been sexually confident women who know their needs
and arent afraid to pursue them
..
i dont see how confidently pursuing sexual fulfillment is inherently masculine
thats pretty sexist, ma’am 😤
also makes me pity you
because i highly doubt you stumbled across sexual fulfilment in your rigid, puritanical years on earth
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jesus i can be mean 😬
its the southern church lady in me
i.e. my paternal grandmother
she was a good woman
but she could be really vicious with words