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Going On, Episode V, iter(1)
What's the opposite of daddy issues?
bring yourself back online myles
Primacy
Tell me your first auditory memory
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My father’s voice. He was reading a story to me. I don’t remember how old I was or what he was saying. I just remember the timbre of his voice.
sound like him
Tell me your first visual memory
The sunset. I think I was four. My mom was held up at school, so I was outside tricycling with the preschool teacher watching over me.
I looked up, and I felt awe.
the world is beautiful
Tell me your first episodic memory
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I’m five. I’m sitting in the waiting room of a psychiatrist office. My parents are in the office talking to the psychiatrist. I can’t hear well, but someone says something like “what’s [REDACTED] with him? Why can’t we [REDACTED] him? How can we [REDACTED] him?”
you are aberrant
You're overloading him. He's going to snap
thats ok, he needs to snap
we have the lady’s dice
keep pushing
If you say so
i do
Repetition
Who do you remember most from childhood?
*smiles* My father.
Him singing while waking me up in the morning.
Him coaching my YMCA soccer team.
Playing catch with him.
Playing computer games together in his office.
Beating him in chess for the first time.
Waking up at 5 AM to go fishing with him.
Stealing a candy bar from a gas station, and him tugging me back inside and making me apologize to the shopkeeper.
Him hugging me. The dwindling smell of cigarettes. He never smoked at home, so I didn’t know he was smoker. But that four-hour-old smell of cigarettes made me feel safe. Still does, even though I quit smoking 8 years ago.
be like him
Ask if you think it will help
myles
what [redacted] are you?
I’m [redacted]… What else could I be?
activate analysis mode
elaborate on why you asked "what else could I be?"
Duke is hereYou need to reset and start over
see you next cycle