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It Don't Work that Way No More
Plus a mommy decision and other gurly things.
not a mommy yet
a guy i really like had interesting feedback
basically, he said “it looks like you have a masculine approach and a feminine approach colliding internally”
i.e. “he’s an adult, his choice” vs “concern about the emotional effect”
i honestly didnt think of that angle… but its a very valid read right?
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i dont know what my stories mean to you unless you tell me
i only know what i want to communicate1
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anyways, i ended the mommy roleplay2
i dont want that level of power over him
its not that it would have been unethical
i just dont want to mold an 18 y/o’s sexual identity
its too much responsibility
one question
how many people do you know better than you know me?
why so many headbands?
the remix is way better than the original
why floral?
how often do you see men wearing bright floral clothing?
floral = femme
also im cute in floral
how cute is my new jacket?
also i got that shadow perfect, right?
also also i bite my lip like, a lot
it dont work that way no more
i haven’t successfully penetrated anyone in two years
i just don’t wanna anymore
and y’all know by now how much i love sex
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at some point it started feeling not right
and then it started feeling wrong
i tried with the last girl i dated
couldn’t do it
she turned me on plenty
that dont
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yeah, i tried with a guy recently too
same outcome
is this supposed to embarrass me?
why?
like, im not a man and my self-esteem isnt tethered to my junk
also, i have a great sex life
do you?
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judge not lest ye be judged right?
i Ma’am hard3
California gurls: fine, fresh, fierce, they got it on lock
ya caught me!
im trying out the California gurl accent (on here and irl)
so like, do you think it feminizes me?
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i dunno if this one sells here, most of my followers are in the northeast and south
it sells irl if i dont overdo it?
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for writing purposes: “like” and “?” and implied lilts at the end of sentences
irl: same thing except the lilt isn’t implied
plus some presentation i do not yet have the words to explain
hormone brain = pregnancy brain?
ive been pretty foggy over the past week and a half
feels like my short-term memory has given up
im constantly walking into rooms 10 feet away and forgetting why
anyways i was talking to a friend
and she was like “so you have pregnancy brain”
and i was like “??”
and she was like “yeah, women’s hormones do crazy things during pregnancy and lot of them report experiences like what you’re describing. makes sense it happens to transitioning women too”
i dont have a punchline here, im just annoyed
like, how long am i going to be super ditzy for?
(i was already ditzy, this just makes it ridiculous)
do re mi
i felt like when i said “i sing”, you didn’t appreciate the meaning
voice tools is the app
pretty cool and free
this is my singing voice tho
my speaking voice isnt used to that pitch
also changing your pitch doesnt change your vocal presentation
thats where the vocal therapy comes in!!!
did you notice the weird thing?
i dont have a falsetto
or at least i dont have falsetto break
two more questions
why do you read me?
is it the shock value?